WEDDING ALERT

Wow it has been ages since I have written on my blog. I have so many friends and family all over the United States, and this blog was a way for them to keep connected to me....however, it's not as effective a tool for me to keep connected to them. Thus Facebook. I have neglected my blog, and have been staying connected to loved ones via Facebook....It's more of a 'mutually satisfying' experience. One problem being that EVERYONE does not have FB. At my sons wedding (which I will talk about later on in this update) several friends and family (that are not FB converts yet) requested some blog updates....So here we go.

I probably should have went back and read what my latest blog entries were, so that I could be more informative, but I didn't. (Too lazy I guess.) So, I'll just pick up on the LATEST, BIGGEST, news in our family.

The most sentimental and HUGEST news in our family, is that my son Jonathan Paul Bertram is now a married man. YEP! I can hardly believe it, but it is true. Jonathan married a precious girl from our church. 'Cynthia' is an incredibly beautiful and Godly young lady. I am so proud of Jonathan's pick!!

Cynthia has been a part of FMT since she was about 10 or 11. Something about Cynthia grabbed my heart. (Those of you that know me well, know that 'maternal' blood flows in my veins in the healthiest form, and I just can't help it!) I can't explain it, just can say that since she was very young, I would always 'look out' for her. A mother's love from me was just hers, free for the taking.....and she did. I often tell Jonathan that I fell in love with Cynthia before he did....I really did. I have corrected many people in the last couple of weeks when they refer to my 'daughter-in-law'...I quickly tell them that I have no daughter-in-law. I have 2 daughters.

I was thrilled to share every wedding planning experience with my girl. Many LA trips, David's Bridal trips....you name it. What fun we had.... The bond becoming stronger and stronger.

All this said, there were many bitter/sweet sentimental moments. Realizing that nothing would ever be the same. The little guy that I lived to take care of, and put every part of my being into, would be leaving home forever... The job of taking care of him would be passed on to someone else. It wouldn't be mine. Forever.....

Jonathan has always had a special 'sense' with me. I might be able to fool everyone else but never Jonathan. He just knows when I'm sad or upset, .... One night before he was married I was having one of these bitter/sweet sentimental moments, and didn't want anyone to see me cry...SO, knowing I wouldn't be missed (everyone was out with various events) I got in my car and just started driving. I cried and cried driving the streets of Santee. After about an hour my phone rings....guess who?! (He made me so mad that night!...Can't a girl just cry her eyeballs out without all the commotion? Drown her sorrows in a calorie filled milkshake or something without having to report to everyone?!) "Mom are you alright?" Trying to make my voice all 'sing-songy'. "Of course I'm alright....I'm at Sonic getting a drink." That 'sense' kicked in and he held on like a pit bull, and wouldn't let go until I was sobbing, hiccuping, and drooling all over the phone, telling him how hard it was for me to let go and let life take it's natural God elected course. We had a very sweet talk,....talked about all our special dinners together, and just how special and dear our bond was to each of us. He was so sweet, and the bitter tears turned sweet, as we talked and I cried, hiccuped, and felt like a nerd...but a nerd that was making the very necessary adjustments of the heart and soul, and the one helping me was that little boy that had turned into such a sweet, sensitive and incredible man.

I am a grateful lady. My first born has made the biggest step in his life, and he picked a little angel. My heart is full of gratefulness and peace. God has been so good to me!